Thursday, September 25, 2008

Broken Hearted Yet Again

Update time...

Honestly, I haven't updated in awhile because sucks and I haven't had the heart to put it in writing.
So I believe we left off with TGTBT in Minneapolis. He said he was going to go on a "phone silence" for the rest of his time out there, but that only lasted about a day. We continued to talk on a daily basis. However, I apparently was the exception to the rule. When KKK found out we were speaking she had a right little tantrum and deleted us both from her precious friends list. Hallelujah! Now the evil succubus is out of the picture...things will be fine! Right? Wrong!
He got back from Minneapolis and life was wonderful. His ex-wife had agreed to let him bring the kids home for the week of Halloween so we were making plans for all of the fun things we were going to do with all 4 kids. We spent all day texting and all night cuddling. We went birthday shopping for his youngest boy who was turning 1 the following week. I was blissfully happy.
He was only home for 4 days before he left for Reno to spend his little guy's birthday with him. He had a great time in Reno with his boys. When he returned though, things with KKK changed. They were speaking again. They were "friends" again.
He left for his vacation to Pennsylvania on Tuesday. He told me he was leaving on Monday, but apparently that was total crap.
My kids were gone over the weekend so we pretty much spent every minute together Friday and Saturday. Went to his soccer game Saturday night and ran into a co-worker, which led to a lot of awkward questions on Monday ha ha. Sunday afternoon he had plans to go up the canyon with KKK. He told me he would only be a couple hours and that he would come to my place around 8:30 after the kids were in bed. He never showed up. He finally texted at midnight and simply said "I suck. Too much to get done before I go. I'm packing now." How he thinks he's so suave is beyond me. As if I'm not smart enough to figure it out! Reading between the lines in her "In Your Face T" wall posts, they spent the following night together as well when he was supposed to already be on his way to PA.
What a mess. What a joke. KKK is now doing everything in her power to rub it in my face and cause drama between TGTBT and I. She comments on every single status change, pictures, etc. which is something she never did before. She comments on other mutual friends' pages that she knows I'll see. It's actually quite pathetic, but it is what it is. And it worked. I have too much self respect to put up with this nonsense!
Needless to say, I'm done. I have no intentions of being petty, the way KKK tends to be, and delete him from my sacred list of Facebook friends. I'll even continue to speak to him through text and/or email. That's where it ends though. I refuse to continue with this sordid love triangle simply because he wants to keep his back-up around. If I'm not enough, then I'm not enough and that's ok. But I am done wasting my time and emotions.
Sooooo...once again, I have failed to find love. Maybe there's something wrong with me. Maybe there's something wrong with the men I choose. Maybe it's simply my destiny to grow old alone. Doesn't make my heart hurt any less.
Until next time, much love!

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